Laura Mckay

“My name is Laura Mckay from the UK, I am 35, have a fantastic partner and a two year old son. I lost my mum to breast cancer at 15 and at 32 discovered my BRCA2 mutation. I had my son the following year (2016) and last year had my bilateral mastectomy with immediate reconstruction on 3rd September 2018.

I discovered two days after surgery that my surgeon had made an error and used the wrong implants in my reconstruction surgery (I wanted rounds and he used teardrops which completely changed the outcome of my reconstruction and devastated me emotionally and physically). 4 weeks after surgery I was sent last minute for surgery on my right foob as a seroma was leaking and the incision wasn’t healing, skin was removed which distorted the shape and size on the right side.

On Boxing Day my scar on my left side changed colour and felt different, I saw a surgeon the next day and had to have surgery later that day to remove my left implant, the scar opened up to reveal the implant and due to the high risk of infection the implant had to be removed, of course I am just gutted by what’s happened since choosing to have this surgery but the alternative was facing a cancer diagnosis, no women in my family have survived 40 so I knew I had no other option. It’s hard to feel like myself at the moment as I’ve only one breast left and it’s so much smaller and a bit wonky compared to my natural breasts.

On 28th March, my mums birthday, I had stage one of my revision surgery,  with my new surgeon, we did a fat transfer to thicken the tissue and he cut away excess skin that hung from the end of my scars, sometimes they are called dog ears.

On 11th July I will be back on the table for my 5th and final (fingers crossed) surgery, another round of fat transfer plus new implants in both sides plus internal work for the implant to sit in the right place and (currently very low and wide), I am positive this will finally give me a good result, one that I can live with, wear nice clothes again, my original surgery left me without any volume or cleavage and for someone who had G cup breast size and cleavage for days, this has made the effects from the surgery very difficult. 

Trying to accept my ever changing body has been a struggle but I try not to let it get me down but of course I have bad days and struggle to find clothes that fit and look good. I still try to be optimistic and positive even with these bumps in the road. I changed surgeons (due to losing all trust in the previous one) and I have so much confidence in his abilities that I know it’ll all be worth it in the end.

What I’ve learned since mastectomy is that reconstruction really is a work in progress, Rome wasn’t built in a day after all, patience is paramount, advocate for yourself if you feel something isn’t right and trust in the process”.